Daily life things
Last week was the most planned week I’ve had in months. There were multiple dinners out, visits from friends, a yoga class that I taught, work meetings and even a haircut! It was glorious. I’m reflecting now how much more enriched life is when there’s interaction with people and hobbies involved.
It’s not completely seamless for me to jump back into meetings and socializing in the way that I did BB (before baby). The biggest barrier seems to be the latency that exists from what is happening, my mind processing it, and then my ability to communicate back. I think this is the impact of long term sleep deprivation.
The hard part about this is then I go home, replay interactions and can feel guilt or self-doubt. For example, “I hope my thank-you came across as sincere and that they know how much I appreciate it!” Or, “I hope the way I introduced them wasn’t wrong.” And “did everyone on that conference call think I’m an idiot?” Etc. Etc. Etc.
The only way I’m able to move on is to remind myself that I’m communicating with more than just words when I’m with people. My way of being and energy is a much better reflection. Also, I know that the people I surround myself with love me and are not searching for ways to turn my words around and criticize me. I thought having a baby would help diminish some of these selfish self-doubts, but I’m here to tell you it doesn’t go away!
With that said, here are a few things I’ve been loving lately:
Unwinding Time
The show Somebody Somewhere. This is on HBO and captures true life, character development and humor in a way I’ve not seen before. Bryan and I devoured it. This is the official description, which I love:
“Grappling with loss and acceptance, singing is Sam's saving grace and leads her on a journey to discover herself and a community of outsiders who don't fit in but don't give up, showing that finding your people, and finding your voice, is possible. Anywhere.”
Spiritual Time
Singing in the bath. Hear me out on this. Baths alone are great, but lately I’ve been using it as my time to watch the recording of a women’s circle I’ve been apart of for two years but never actually join. Lately they’ve been bringing songs that double as chanted intentions to the meetings. It is a great release.
Movement
Swimming outside, 20 min sculpt classes, walking after dinner, yoga. These are my favorite things. I haven’t been back on my bike in a loooooong time, but am looking forward to that soon too.
Eating
Coconut yogurt with Sakara granola. I’ve written a lot about Sakara meal delivery as you all know. I’m still a big fan of that but have been supplementing my 3-day subscription with their granola. It is SO good. If you don’t want the meals but want to try them, check out their a la cart options.
Dreaming
I want to have a special 40th birthday party. Right now I am dreaming of friends and family on a beach, blue waters and warm weather. I see us having bottles of wine on dinner tables in the sand and I want all the guests to stay in a cluster of beautiful villas. If this sounds good to you, block off your calendar for November 2024.
Cheers,
Rachel